Meeting of two lovers

The meeting of two lovers


is like the chill on a cold winter evening

the anticipation

the wait

the shivers

the heart rush



the thought that preludes

the picture that comes to mind

when they will actually meet

the contours of their faces

the smiles

the twinkling eyes

the unspoken words

that the two hearts utter



the silence

that says it all



the meeting of two lovers

is like a precious stone

rare to find and when found never forgotten

for love does not reside in one heart and not the other

for love is now torn into two

and separation causes a bitter sweet pain



the meeting is what holds it together

for one day

the two hearts will unite

two souls will light up

their eyes will smile

and the world will watch...

the meeting of two lovers

Once a upon a time...

Once upon a time
there was a little girl
she was fair and beautiful
with soft black tendrils

she was loved by her daddy
and she looked up to him
"You're smart and intelligent"
he would tell her always

she grew up thinking so
and at every point
her daddy urged her on

since she was five
she had only one dream
some blue eyed smiling boy
would come and hold her hand

she would be happily married
with children around her
a few pets
and a nice little garden

but her daddy said no
he said you can't trust any colored eyes
"You have to be strong
on your own two feet
you should never be
at the mercy of anyone else"

along the way
many boys came
they saw her beauty
elegance and grace

they bent on their knees
and asked her for her hand
her heart grew happy
and turned to her dad

"No"
He would say
"He is not the right one"
sad and dejected, she'd say goodbye

"Daddy Daddy look, there's a boy
he wants to be my friend
all life long"

"No"
He would say
"You have to first be on your feet
and march on, shoulders square
and take on the world"

and so...

the little girl
marched on
through seasons
and through reasons

then one day
her daddy commando was no more
she stood on her heels
waiting for her command

"March!"
but none came
and then the fog lifted
and she saw

she saw that she was all alone
on an empty long road
no was she a little girl
but an old lonely woman

leaning on her only companion
her walking stick

Where are you?

I wander through this world
all alone
I have no time
to look by my side
to see, where is my mate

The day rushes past so fast
but the night confront's me
to my emptiness
I dread to go home

for it's a house and not really a home

Then I wonder, you too must feel the same
but then if you do
why haven't you found me yet?

I sip the cocoa and do the puzzles
hoping they'd make me go to sleep
when I can't figure it out.. I do
but if I solve it
I again keep solving

They told me it'd be tough
but this tough I never knew
this heart does not agree
to the men who have come forth

in neither do I find you
and they have started to say
I am too independent
time to clip my feathers
and put me in any cage

yet I know you are there
for I am made from you
If you hadn't been
I wouldn't be

So I bide my time
It is that I have not recognised you
even though you are right infront of me?

Therefore, it's my prayer...
Let me find you
for the nights are turning longer
and the puzzels, easier

Where are you?

A bird in a cage

We have become two strangers
living under the same roof
sharing the same blanket
but warmth has left us
and so has love

You come home,
put on the T.V.
eat the food I made
without a murmur
neither praise
nor critism
and go to bed
facing the wall

I wait for you whole day
yet when you come
you're not there
what is wrong i fail to understand

we were once so much in love
and waited to see each other
you looked forward to my cooking
got me flowers and chocolates
you told me i was your dream girl

and now
you say nothing at all
I talk to you
"Need to pay the electricity bill"
"O.K"
"I wanted to go out with Reena"
"Go"
"Shall we go for dinner with our friends"
"I'm tired"

Cold answers

Is it because now
I am yours
that I am no longer
enchanting
It is because a piece of paper
makes you my husband
that I am for granted?

I will wait
and watch
but one day
I will have had enough
Your big empty house
your fancy car
your credit card that you ask me to use
does not fulfil my need

I just need your love
which you have none to spare
I have become
a decorative piece next to you

I have a soul
that can't be caged
and fed
I need love
to blossom and dance

and when I know
I will never get it
I will silently open
the door of your cage
and fly away in own world out there

Thank you papa, for all the times...

Dear Father
You held me when
I still didn't know
you were my daddy

I don't know when
I called you daddy
I only know
that you adored me,

your baby

You got me toys
and books
you got me a doll
and lolly pop

You hated my friends
for we used to be a 'gang'
you told me always
"You're intelligent!"

You never doubted me
even though I doubted myself
You called me your 'Princess'
and treated me like a queen

as I grew you said you would freeze me
and put me in the showroom
At times you said
you will carry me around in a suitcase
feed me through the holes


I used to laugh and think 'he's mad'
only today I smile
to know I was loved like mad
by my darling papa

I love you my daddy
for all the moments in my life
all the moments when you scolded me
showed me the right path
all the moments when I scolded you
and told you to leave me alone

for all the moments you were patient with me
for all the times you still opened your arms
when I returned home, defeated and heart broken
for all the times...

For all the times

My tiny gift from God

I hold her in my arms
and look at her tiny face
she peeps open her eyes
I find my eyes go moist

I hold her close to my heart
and gently feel her cheek
she is so tiny
and so soft

she blinks
and so does my heart
I play with her fingers
she holds on to them

she doesn't speak yet
but her eyes
and her hands
tell me

she will my little doll
who will soon be walking
and talking
she will be my little monster
who will make me run
helther skelther

she will be my headache
and make me patrol her room
she will be my support
when I would least expect it

She will adore me
she will trouble me
she will hate me
she will love me

As I hold her close
I feel her heart beside mine

I look at her with wonder
for here I finally hold
my darling daughter

delicate as a flower
lovely as a rainbow
tiny as a sparrow
filling my world
with untold happiness

I'm Sorry

My dilemma hits me hard
Should I or Should I not
call you
to say 'Yes'

Everytime I take a step forward
My fears hold me back
You wait there patiently
your eyes encouraging me

You promise me not
days without hardships
or petty squabbles
or pillow fights

You promise me the one thing
I long for my life
friendship
companionship

I am tired of walking
the lanes of this life
alone

I am tired of sharing myself
with different people
only to start over
once again

Yes
I truly want to take your hand
and give you myself
and as I take the first step

I wake up from my dream
shaking with fear
with uncertainity

will I be a good wife?
will I make you happy?
May be one day
you will get up

and leave me

May be one day you will say
"You never did enough"
"You deserve more, go, you're free"
"Goodbye"

These thoughts haunt me
and I'm sorry
I'm sorry to say
they are more powerful

than your silent patient heart

If not love...

If not love,

then let there be madness

if not in company

then meet me in isolation

if not peace,

then let the torment be

if union is impossible,

then let the desire be.

Never Again

Whether you come
and beg on your knees
I will close my heart
and turn my heel

You think of me
like an option to click
I'm a person
not a commodity to pick

At every point of time
since I met you
you treated me so
I smiled and forgave

and took all the pain
you are not to blame
see how I defend you
silly am- oh wait

you already know right?
I knew it was wrong
wrong wrong wrong
but as usual

I succumbed to my whims
now go away
leave me alone
I'm tired

truly tired this time
I have nothing for you
nothing you need anyways
then why do you even want

to know where I am
go go go
leave me in peace
for that's all I need

Peace

The little bird has fallen

I bow my head
sad at my plight
the jihad I want to win
I keep loosing

Today I went
and how I went
unprepared
The paper lay infront of me

doubts poured in
I had not done my practise
what is this or that
or what was it? I asked

I went then
to say I never did
make the report
only to told

Forget it
Didn't I try?
then why again
why again

do I keeping falling down
I don't want to fall
I want to fly
fly high, fly wide

yet, again
I fall down
I cry for I don't know how
this broken wing will mend

where will I get
those kind gentle words
where will I get
that strong warm arms

where will I get
those eyes that tell me
"You are going to make it"
"You will make it"

Oh how, I miss them two
I may have grown
but my heart remains small
I want to be held

and wrapped in warmth
I want to feel secure
and to feel loved
to see them both

to hear them both
mom and dad
my strength and courage
far away.. far far away

this tiny bird has fallen
and no one is there
to say 'get up
Its ok to fall'

Time to look ahead

Every time I turn to my side
I hope to find him
yet he has as always
never been there

This heart is so insane
despite all these
it still waits
for him to catch up

catch up for what?
to lag behind again?
I stand here with plenty of choices
with the hands of men

good and wonderful
offering me their companionship
promising me
a lasting friendship

I look at them
and wonder why
I still look behind
to see if he'll come by

He has never
and will he ever?
today I regret
giving the power over myself

to someone
as kind and gentle he may be
yet to give another
the right to hurt... hurts

It's a feeling one cannot control
for how can how control
their breathing?
or their heart beats?

Again I tell myself
It's time to stop
It's time to stop looking behind
and time

to look ahead

My Best Friend

Along the path of life
I met a wonderful boy
The first time I saw him
I didn't glance a second time

he seemed to be a mere boy
studying in his 10th may be
then i asked him if he was from my place
he got all excited, "Oh yes, I am"

and that is how our friendship began
he talked of microbes and experiments
which i found an odd subject to talk on
to a stranger, yet he didnt seem like one at all

from there it began
we found out we had similiar views
and not so similiar one also
but a standing respect that held us together

days passed into months
and months into years
secrets
past reminences
future aspirations
we shared like little children

we enjoyed each other's company
and knew we would be friends for lifetime
we even decided to marry our children
without yet finding our own spouse

This heart always smiles when i think of him
he is such a dear
that he makes everyone laugh
in his own ways, he doesn't know how sweet he is

yes, along the way
I met my soul mate
and for him does this wise words
come alive and come true

"The most beautiful discovery
true friends make is that
they can grow separately
without growing apart"

Though miles apart
in my heart, thou shall never depart.
Keep smiling dear friend
for you are the most wonderful person, I have ever met.