Where are you?

I wander through this world
all alone
I have no time
to look by my side
to see, where is my mate

The day rushes past so fast
but the night confront's me
to my emptiness
I dread to go home

for it's a house and not really a home

Then I wonder, you too must feel the same
but then if you do
why haven't you found me yet?

I sip the cocoa and do the puzzles
hoping they'd make me go to sleep
when I can't figure it out.. I do
but if I solve it
I again keep solving

They told me it'd be tough
but this tough I never knew
this heart does not agree
to the men who have come forth

in neither do I find you
and they have started to say
I am too independent
time to clip my feathers
and put me in any cage

yet I know you are there
for I am made from you
If you hadn't been
I wouldn't be

So I bide my time
It is that I have not recognised you
even though you are right infront of me?

Therefore, it's my prayer...
Let me find you
for the nights are turning longer
and the puzzels, easier

Where are you?

If not love...

If not love,

then let there be madness

if not in company

then meet me in isolation

if not peace,

then let the torment be

if union is impossible,

then let the desire be.

Ahlam Thiama

A scent I love so
It fills my heart with joy
It's different
It's unique

two words that mean
all things dear to me

There is a scent I love
I travel across the Indian Ocean
to buy it from the swahili trader

how lucky he is to have it near
he leans on it and hardly notices
but that little bottle waits patiently

for it's mistress who will come one day
with gentle hands
unwind its cap
and apply its fragrance

on her soft supple hands

there is a scent I love so much
It's waiting for me in that island
many will buy it's brothers and sisters

but it shall be patient
waiting for me

My dear scent
made just for me

I have a dream

I have a dream
I'm scared of
It's huge and it's big
and I'm so small

Will I be able to reach it?
Will I be able to live it?
It's not easy
for then it would not be worth pursuing

I have a dream
I am scared of
for it drives me
makes me work

I have a dream
I am scared of
for it will mean
a lot of sacrifices

I have a dream
I am scared of
for it may lead me
to unknown roads

I have a dream
do you think
I will be able to complete
or wake up and shrug it off?

Along the path

I walked along a path
loving someone with my heart
I at times hoped to find
the same love in his heart

All those times I cried
for I realised it never did
and now I have stopped
for no longer can I walk

I have no reason to walk
for the love in my heart
has been killed
for I have been told

I have none at all

I walked along a path
never thinking of the gain
I gave and gave and gave
only to be told

I gave none at all

No hopes, no dreams I kept
even when a tiny light was lit
I ignored for I realised
it would be blown any time

like the many times
how many times
I do not know
and now

I have stopped
to count
this path is leading no where
apart from the occasional shocks

this path is not meant for me
this path does not take me
to where I want to be
this path is not my path

along the way I travelled
and now I check my map
my route is about to change.